a prayer

what will I do with life.

Stuck between want of meaning,
of doing good,

and finding meaning,
finding good

in all things.

but it is not in all things.

what do i want
to do

what will i do

with the rest
of life.

                                       I am sick of shallow people

                                       I am sick
 sick of the shallow
of myself.

Problem:
              i find most joy
              in what may be considered
                                                       the shallow
                                                        the hallow--
or do i?


color.
form.
order.
composition.

typography.
I want to make things
look good
for those who do good.
I want my designs
to be informed
by informing
myself
with what is done--

I want goodness
I want truth
I want these to create
Beauty.

how do i use
     a passion
for a good?

or, sometimes it seems,
more importantly,
how do you
get paid for good?

Idealist.



what is worth while?

goals-- dreams.
Aaron has those, not me.

what do I want to do?
I know what i want to be doing,
not what I want to do.





I want to ask questions












and never stop.

turn out like a spout--
dreams--
splatter, smattered, like batter, onto floor
concrete
the street
cold-- oiled, bold.

too big for me
to shurg on,
to keep buttontoned.
to tight
to breathe
to keep zipped,
so i shed it to the floor--

too much
I fear
is near-- falling out,
oh, doubt--
who am I?
Where am I?

Shout.

now count
the minutes you spend,
the hours, like towers, building
till gone and dead
is your oppertunity
to improve your imunity
to this world
to this

in action.

become raidoactive,

your dreams,

till it seems you'll burst with potential
instead of consequential

death
of self-- instead

die by never giving into the lie--

become.

then, it will be done.